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Monday, January 30, 2012

The Long Awaited Update!

I'm just kidding.
I know I only have a handful of people that will read this but nyeah. I will post anyways.

For starters, I have lost 15 pounds in the past two months. I'm so happy and proud of myself. During a particularly heinous fight, my husband yelled out, "Look at you! You decided you didn't want to be fat anymore and you just changed! Just like that! You can change for the better!"
While I was still royally pissed at him, it still really strikes me as kind of a wonderful thing. (Don't worry, hubby and I kissed and made up, as we usually do.)

With that, I still get discouraged! For instance, last week I was at 186 then Friday I weighed in and was at 188. I was so depressed that I gained those extra 2 pounds. Everyone kept saying, "It's probably just muscle!" That's all fine and good but I have so much weight to lose to be remotely close to healthy that even just 2 pounds feels like 50. But I kept to my limits and even tried to go to the gym today while sick (not a good idea, by the way, I feel like shit) and after stepping on the scale I discovered I was at 185. Cue big huge grin.

A few days ago, I had an idea that weekly, in order to keep myself focused on the wonderful things that are happening to my body, I should find new great things that are happening. Then I won't focus so much on how my tummy looks kind of dimpled now and I'm not sure if it will look nice when the weight's gone, things like that. (Can you tell what I'm focused on at the mo?)

So without further ado:
1. I have collarbones. They are officially out there.
2. My Old Navy "fat" jeans are extremely baggy, my Old Navy "regular" jeans are starting to loosen up, and I finally fit back into my Lucky "fat" jeans. :>
3. I can bound up my entire staircase and not be out of breath!!
4. I am able to make much better food choices much more easily.
5. I don't have that shadow of a double chin.
6. I am discovering I have some extremely powerful muscles underneath the pudge.
7. All of my clothes are fitting so much better.


Saturday, January 7, 2012

A Blog In Which I Will Ramble About Several Topics

I am down...9 pounds. I am SO ANXIOUS to see that last pound go so I can say I hit 10 pounds. Also, I can get that massage. I can't even believe it sometimes. I actually have dropped nearly 15% of the total amount of weight I want to drop. It FEELS big. And I am loving the fact that my jeans are baggy around my thighs and butt. I can finally get back INTO the jeans that I cried over because I couldn't get them up over my thighs after I washed them. My shirts don't feel so stifling. My face even seems thinner. There are still 60 pounds to go but can I just say I am so HAPPY that I finally DID something about my body! And am still doing it! I am a little sad to see that I have stretch marks on my tummy but I think if I get toned up they'll barely be noticeable.

Also, I'd like to just say that if you're on an elliptical and your boobs need a better bra, ladies. I have DDs (ouch) and they are strapped down somethin' fierce, trust me. They don't go ANYWHERE. I got a catalog from Athleta or whatever and ye gods. The bras were expensive as hell. And talked about "lifting and separating". When I'm at the gym, lifting or running or doing whatever, I'm not really worried about the girls being lifted and separated. Are they being held down? Yes. Do my boobs feel like they're going to fall off? Nope. Yes, I have a uni-boob but that's a-okay in my book as long as they are in place.
I'd like to add that wearing the same pants as someone else is a little embarrassing but kind of funny. Apparently we both like Old Navy!

I think I'm finally coming out of my winter hibernation mode. I don't know what it is, but when winter sets in, and I mean really sets in (here in the Pacific Northwest it's dark by 4pm...full dark), I'm unable to function on less than 10 hours of sleep. I couldn't wake up till 1 in the afternoon sometimes, usually around noon, which really just throws off my whole schedule for eating, working out, everything. But I'm finally starting to wake up at 10 or sometimes 9. The other morning I was actually awake at 7. I don't even know how that happened but whatever! It was great. I made scrambled egg whites for myself and had a nice breakfast and even was able to see the sunrise. My hope is that when I get out of my winter funk, I'll have more energy. When I was in shape before (I keep saying that), I'd wake up at 8 every morning, no matter how late I was up or what I did. And I was ready to go. All day. I want that again!!